9:47 a.m. || 2005-11-02
dull
a little time to update at last..but only 5 mins til I have to get dressed and go for an afternoon of teaching. I'm enjoying suplly work, I just wish it was more secure.
Not much happening on the job front...not even an interview...its worrying but everytime I call for feedback they say its because there was so many applicants and because I havent completed my induction...they have so many experienced applicants that its just easier for the school to employ one of them.
Been in a funny mood...its like I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I HAVE to be doing somethingALL of the time. I feel so uneasy if I sit still, but I get so knackered that I don't have the energy to do anything productuive. I feel really wound up...can't put my finger on why... things are going well for me.
Ali was back at the weekend...after the initial WOW Youre here thing...it was like she had never been away...was good!
I love my lovely Kevin. He is so amazing. He's taking me out for a meal on friday...I don't know where. It just seems ages sine justthe two of us did anything together. We decorate the house and watch TV but never actually go anywhere. I'm really looking forward to it.
He was all dressed for work this morning in my favourite combination of work clothes (he's so pretty and has a fab body.....and in a suit....oooooohhhh mmmmmmmm drool drool) I just wanted to sit and look at him. Still can't believe he is going to be my Hisband!
Been thinking about moving the wedding forward to Christmas next year! This could complicate things for a lot of reasons but the main thing I'm worried about is upsettting Becca again. Her wedding is in October and she was so mad at me for getting engaged soon after she did...I don't know how she would take us moving the wedding. I don't know how Bec feels about me and kevin getting married anymore. She said she was ok with it. She probably is...but she still hasn't actually said congratulations...though the moment has passed in all fairness! I just feel weird talking about my wedding infront of her. I try not to and just concentrate on hers, it just makes me feel a bit sad sometimes. but its ok. I love bec. We had a fab time together shopping the other day. Since when did charity shops start charging normal high street prices. I only wanted some dodgy 80's gettup....cost a flippin fortune! End result for all of us was marvellous. Check out moos diary for piccies and note just how cute my lil is hanging from my dressing gown. Kevin caught that just at the right moment.
Anyway, I havent actually sid anything in my whole rambling entry so i'm going to go get dressed because this has taken longer than the five minutes I gave myself! oops and now I'm going to be late.
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