10:29 a.m. || 2005-12-15
the brown haired party host and a bit about christmas
ta da.
And I have BROWN hair. I would promise to post a pic but I never get round to it so I would be lying.
Its our engagement party tomorrow night. I'm quite excited. Only thing is. Lots of people said they were coming when I first invited everyone then all of a sudden everyone has other plas (don't worry lisacarteralloneword...thats not aimed at you. I totally understand the whole having to go to work thing). I invited people over a month ago and now am being told that they may have to go out for meals or are going to a different party or have a gig. Not one person from church that I have invited is coming. It makes me a little bit cross.
But as long as my best friends are there it'l still be a good night. I have my moo my deli and my becca so its okay. I so wish Ali was coming.
I've never actually hosted a party before. I'm really nervous. What if people just don't turn up or they don't have a good time. I much prefer going to other peoples parities.
Kevins mam and dad came over last night. His mam bought me a 'lovely' Christmas wreath with a big stuffed fairy in the middle. She is very sweet but at least I have learned a lesson...do not put her in charge of table and reception decorations for the wedding.
In all fairness...the wreathe is sweet and girly and I love that she had a lovely kind thought to bring it for us...along with so delicious chocolate chip cookies and bizzarely...a half eaten box of sugar puffs.
I was thinking this morning about how excited I will be this time next year...Christmas and a wedding and then new year.
I'm also thinking how stressed I could be. Especially if I havent managed to find a job by then. My extension will be up for comleting my induction year and I won't be allowed to teach. I would HATE to have that hanging over my head...So not going there at the minute. I've managed to calm my job stress and am just calmly looking. I have an appointment with a schoolin Durham tomorrow to get an application pack for a reception class teacher for 2 terms. I'm not going to get my hopes up...just going to go for it and take what happens. I know that ther eis going to be times when I'm disappointed, but I just have to deal with it.
Anyway. Its so nearly Christmas. And I LOVE CHRISTMAS. I'm going to get Kevins present today. I'm really excited. I need to get something else for my mam, something for little Beth and one more thing for my sister then I'm done. Woohoo!
Last year I was trapsing around the metro centre on Christmas Eve looking for lastminute stuff and then had a monster wrapping session allijn one go. Am so not doing that again this year.
My favourite part of Christmas is the Church service on Christmas Eve. It's very cheesy...but I love it. The church is so full they have to bring in extra seats (it already seats 400)and everyone dresses really nicely and ...its just so nice. Its nice to remember the real meaning of Christmas amongst all the hype, the tradition and the commercialism. It makes it mean so much more. I love the song 'Thorns in the Straw'...it's quite a sad song...but it really is what Christmas is....
"And did they see there, in the straw by His head, a thorn.
And did they smell myrrh in the air on that starry night.
And did they hear Angels song not so far away.
Until at last the sun rose blood red in the morning sky"
I know it seems morbid...but it's not really...it's kind of one of those 'bitter sweet' kind of things.
Anyway enough for now. I'm actually bored out of my brain and need to do something today. I don't think I can handle more time off work. I might go make place cards for the party. that seems like fun.
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