11:22 a.m. || 2006-08-18
really? I can write that much and yest say nothing....i have found my talent
WHERE IS THE SUNSHINE?????
Seriously...ever since the holidays began it has been cold and wet. It is not on! NOT ON!
I'm really worrying about starting my new job. It's all very complicated and new...it's the new part that scares me most. I know I'll probably be okay once I get started but it's just...I really don't know where to start. I'm totally secure teaching younger children. I know year 5/6 don't sound that old, but to me, they are. Plus, ther is so much pressure on Year 6 for SAT results and the school has very high standards. I'm not just being insecure...but what if there is a major drop this year and it WILL be all my fault. Plus I have year 5 children also. I really don't like mixed age teaching. The gap in abilities is too huge. If you can imagine the difference between a SEN year 5 child(9 years old working about the same level as an 'average' 7 year old) and a top end year 6 child (11 year old working at around the level of a 13 year old). There is a HUGE amount of differentiation needed.
Sorry, I'm spouting boring boring boring.
I'm so wound up today. I really don't know why.
I'm looking forward to the next week. Kevin has taken some time off so finally we can have some quality time together. Even though he is around all the time, I feel like 'proper' couple time with him is scarce so when we get the chance to be together it is very rare and precious. I think we might just curl up tonight and spend time chatting and cuddling. We don't have specific plans for the rest of the time but I don't care if I do nothing as long as I'm doing nothing with Kevin.
Kevin has been working very hard lately and doing a lot of extra hours. Poor man is so tired. It is helpful though, seeing as we are absolutley skint.
I literally have lived on £4 this week, including putting some petrol in the car to visit my friend...actually that was the entire £4 and that really was the last of my money until I get paid...and even that came from my overdraft.
I have to say that I don't really care though. We've done pretty well considering there was 2 months where Kevin had no salary and my wage covered everything and we've been paying out for the wedding. It will just take us a couple of months to get on our feet...we're not going to starve or anything and that puts us in a better position than the majority of the rest of the world...infact, that makes us rich in comparison.
Anyway, coffee craving are giving me a jolly old prod wondering where the caffine fix is so off I go to feed my addiction.
And, finally, in all my shameless admittance...I am excited for the Big Brother final tonight. Hmmm Pete or Glynn, Glynn or Pete..or Pete and Glynn or Pete...or Glynn? Who goes? You decide!!!!!!!!!!
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