3:57 p.m. || 2005-08-09
things you should know about leesmry
The name Leesmry is made up from drunkenly slurring the name Lisa Marie (and no, my parents did not like Elvis.
I do my best to live in a way that Jesus would want me to and am disgusted by my constant failure.I love the fact that Jesus loves me no matter what.I have a pink space hopper called Orange.I have the bestest most beautifully stunning boyfriend in the world and could not wish for anyone more perfect...really.I have had an eating disorder since I was 14 and it has gotten me ito all sorts of trouble and almost killed me. I now, thanks to all the love in my life, feel like I've finally made the biggest steps towards ending it forever...full recovery is possible, never let anyone say that it is something you will have to deal with for the rest of your life.I am in awe of my friends. They are truly wonderful people.I've recently discovered that I like bananas.I love music and could sing forever. Gareth is going to produce my album..I play the flute, saxophone and piano.I am obsessed with shoes, bags, coats, belts..actually just clothes.I am a teacher.I'm only just starting to learn about who I am and understand that no matter how bad I think I am, to others, I can still be a blessing. I sometimes have odd fashion sense and probably misguidedly believe I can pull it off. I make up random words such as misguidedly (is it actally a word?). I am exceptionally sensitive and emotional and cry at almost everything. I can be a really mean person and have a nasty temper (I really am working on this). I believe in soul mates and believe that you will be with the person you are meant to be with.I am drawn in a trance like state to anything that sparkles...oooohhhh sparkly!.Some things that don't kill you don't make you stronger, they screw you up.When you make a decision,there is no other decision you could make because it is made based on your circumstances and who you are at that particular time and will shape how things will go in the future...therefore, regret nothing.I am 23 and feel 10. I got asked to produce I.D. when buying a lighter in Asda.I have grown up with Mandy and now live one sreet away from her...it's so cool.My personality is a blond as my hair.I've just bought my first house and I love it love it love it.bouncing makes me very giggly.when I'm 'tipsy' (never drunk) I love everybody.I think Kevin is easily the most beautiful person on the planet, both inside and out.If I was an animal, I would like to be a penguin. I missed out on a first class degree by 0.8% and didn't appeal for a first. I can accept that I'm not exactly the most attractive person on the planet and now just do the best I can with what I have. I know I sometimes seem quite giddy and superficial (clueless style), but underneath I am quite deep. I watch neighbours (shhhh!). I'm addicted to cuddles. I often think that I'm going to die. I'm terrified of being alone...seriously terrified.I hate this because I believe that Jesus is always there and don't want him to feel that he isn't enough. I just bought new blue shoes...they are sooooo blue and pretty, they are the best. I can't dance to save my life but that never stops me trying. Innocent mangoes and passion fruit smoothies are the new best thing...the blue shoes are so last minute.I love love...that's what Kevin says about me. I still have the naive belief and desire 'to make a difference'. Should I have grown out of this by now?.I doubt myself and seek constant approval and reassurance from others. I have a childlike need to be praised. I don't get really obvious jokes. That makes me cry. I sometimes wish I had a darker side with more 'attitude'. unfortunately the darkest side of my character will always be pink I quite like my boobs am I vain for saying that? My heroin is Olivia Joules (from a Helen Fielding Novel) I bop to music in my head that makes people think I'm weird I would love to work in fashion if it was not such a snobby, bitchy, stab in the back industry. I unfortunately learned about the negatives of the fashion industry whilst working for a close friend She is now no longer a close frind :-( I love Auntie Nora - she is the coolest old person alive and I just love her to pieces My family can at times be dysfunctional but I love them all unconditionally forever I am a singer in a band I always sing what I'm told to and have not yet discovered my own voice or style I love Kevin - just incase you didn't already know
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